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Brazos Valley mom shares heartbreak from son's suicide in hopes of creating change

September is Suicide Prevention and Awareness Month
Posted at 4:00 PM, Sep 07, 2020
and last updated 2020-09-07 19:00:43-04

BRYAN TX — September is Suicide Prevention and Awareness Month. One Brazos Valley mother who lost her son to suicide the day before his 26th birthday is sharing his story in hopes it could save someone else's life.

Margo Marek is hoping by sharing details of her tragic loss, she will spare other parents the pain of losing a child.

"The signs are there, but you know.... you don’t want to believe that they are yours," she said. "As you can see the closet.. that's where it happened... the closet."

Inside the closet, one day before he turned 26, Christian Brinkman killed himself even though birthday plans were underway.

"So I was trying to talk back and forth with him about how we were going to meet up. He was going to come over, we were going to cook here at home and it just didn’t happen," Marek added.

It would soon be a birthday nobody would celebrate and a dinner nobody would enjoy.

"This is why the table is set like this, he (Christian) loved Texas A&M Football," Marek said.

A table set the way Christian liked, supporting his favorite team, but now, at this table, there will forever be an empty seat.

"I never knew that all the times he was running thru walls or when he wrecked the car when he was younger or when he went skiing with his friend, he had ended up with a concussion. I didn’t realize that those were clues.. those were attempts, " explained Marek.

Cries for help from a Marine veteran that went unheard.

"If I knew now.. I think I would have called for him," Marek added in reference to calling the National Suicide Hotline.

Christian's mother knows calling a suicide hotline may have saved her son. It's call she wishes she would have made now. Even though she's living without him, he's never far from her thoughts.

"He was loved and he was never a burden. I really do think that if he would have told me how serious everything was ... the voices in his head... the things that were so dark.... that it would have been something that he could have gotten thru if he just maybe called the suicide line and shared his pain," said Marek.

To help her get through the pain, she holds on tight and cherishes a recording from one of their calls.

"I play it to hear him say, "Ma... Ma,"" Marek said.

""Mom, check out my house... Ma, you gotte come over!,"" Christian said in a message to his mom.

"I wish I would have... it's moments like that that I cherish and get through moments of when I think about him," Marek said.

When she thinks of him, she gets emotional and visits the cemetery where his body is laid to rest.

"I have my moments where I cry. So... going and visiting his grave and watering his grass, just talking to him. I expect him to walk thru the door and I know he's not," Marek said.

As this mother works through her grief, she is learning that talking and listening could be the difference between life and death.

Margo Marek is very passionate about the Brazos Valley Coalition on Suicide Prevention and encourages everyone to have tough conversations.

If you or someone you know is struggling, call the National Suicide Hotline at (800) 273-8255.